Sometimes it's hard to be in a relationship with God. You know why? Because he is never wrong. Imagine if your husband or your wife or your brother or your sister really were never wrong (like they think). Wouldn't that make you so mad? How could you live with that person? But we're supposed to live with God. Can you believe it? Worse! He's supposed to live in us! And he's never wrong. Imagine if your husband or your wife or your brother or your sister lived inside of you telling you what to do all the time, or telling you how it is. Wouldn't that drive you nuts? Wouldn't you sometimes want to look into your spirit and say, "get out of there, you never wrong person, because you got to be wrong this time; I just know you are!"
But God is never wrong. It's no wonder we God-filled people are in turmoil sometimes. We're fighting with the man in our soul. That's gotta be tough!
But God is not a man, like our spouse or our sibling. He's God. He's not only never wrong, but he's got more tact. Right? Well, let me tell you something. You know how when you first meet someone, and they want to put on a good first impression so they act really nice, but then after you get to know them a bit they will tell you like it is. Guess where we get that from? Yep--God himself. That's my experience anyway.
Because the more I got to know God, the more I hear him telling me how it is. Oh, he doesn't have an attitude about it--if you don't count the fact that he IS God after all and He DOES know everything after all--that's not really attitude if it is just the way it is. He can't help it--he can say it as nice and quiet and gentle as you like, but it still comes down to the fact that what he says is true and you don't like it, but he can't help that you don't like it, he's just telling you like it is.
You see, I think as we develop a relationship with him, he knows we can handle it that way; and he's glad because the way he dealt with you before took too long and all you did then was complain that God acted too slow (never mind he HAD to go slow to give you the grace you needed to learn what you needed to learn). So I guess it's fine he tells me like it is and it's fine that he's never wrong.
What I have figured out is, the more I love him, the easier it is to listen to him. When I have more love for the thing he is correcting me on--then is when I get mad at him for knowing everything. "You just think you know everything, don't you God," I ask belligerently. And do you know what he says? "I do know everything." And he says it without an apology--no apology in word or in tone of voice. Just a nice quiet, calm, "I do know everything." That know-it-all is in my heart! There is no way I can exist with a lack of love in any area towards God and be sane if he's gonna keep on living inside of me (and he ain't moving out anytime soon). So I got to grow in love with God if I want to continue to have peace in my soul. That's just what I gotta do.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
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